Sobering stuff, indeed.

SO, here is another day, and today, I am here before you, typing this.  It's been a tough day.  I have been up since about 3:30 this morning, just trying to get through this day, and I did, and even finished my day a bit early.  However, tonight, Karen and I received in the mail the scale we will be using to gauge our weight, set goals to meet, etc.  Well, my weight is about to public knowledge, but it means that i am more accountable for what I am doing and it means I will have no one to complain to about what I do next. My goal weight is a hundred pounds away, but it is the distance I have to travel mentally, not just physically, in order to begin to REALLY get back to the person I want to be.  So, in short, I am bearing quite a bit before all who are reading this.  My friends, my family, my enemies, even my children, and whomever will see this if they decide to. 
  It is the final disastrous accumulation of YEARS and YEARS of hot dogs, hamburgers, cheese burgers, chicken nuggets, fried chicken, pastas, candies, cookies, pies, puddings, over eating, etc, etc etc.    Now, I have to not only get it out of my system, but I have to change my way of thinking.  No small task for someone so bull headed and thick skulled as yours truly.  So tonight's dinner, Golden beets, apples, turnips, and carrots, juiced down into a glass for the drinking.  It's like drinking horse radish with a sweet kick.  But still, honestly,  I would rather eat  ham and cheese.  But truly, that is what got me to where I am now. 
So, oh yeah, the one thing I can guess you've been wondering.  What the scale said to me.  461 lbs.    Goodnight folks.  No beating me up over it, please, I am already doing it to myself a hundred fold.  CHEERS!!