So, what a difference a month makes...

So ,my friends, I am back, I am here, and off we go.  Well, to date I have put back on about 8 pounds from my loss of 20+ and I am sorry to say it.  I am only human, which is a good excuse, or weak-willed, which is a cop-out, or I can say, I just waned a little bit.  Either way, I must say it is true that you can never go home again, no matter how close to it you actually are.  I let slip myself, not back to burgers and fries, and other unhealthy stuff, but to just not controlling my portions, and I am to blame for it all myself.
  I have stepped back into the ring with my juicing, however and I am going to be drinking two juices per day, with a salad in the mix for lunch and a healthy dinner.  My new job allows me much more freedom to be home with Karen to have something she can watch me make, or she can make for the both of us.
  Don't be heavy handed in your admonishments of me, dear friends.  I know that I am going to have to come to terms with the realization that if I want this bad enough, it will be all the more harder to reach and attain than just leaping off the edge of the cliff and hoping for water at the bottom.  I'll have to fill it in myself if I want to land safely.  Love to all of you, and here I go again, on the journey I need to be on, and not just think I need to be on.  CHEERS!

And now, The Larch, or, the next step forward in the excruciating look back at my gourmet-nightmare stomach bulging life that has lead me to this spot. And now....

  So, Once more into the breach dear friends, or some such line.  I am now at the end of a two week juice-a-thon and down close to 14 pounds.  Now, it will be portion control for about two weeks to get me used to smaller meals, and re-integrate my hunger into a more normal eating process.  This is where things get harder, and if all goes as planned, much better for the future. I have also decided that the beginning of January will be a juice every other week time for me.  To keep me active in it, and keep me moderated as I begin a new excercise regimen as well.  So, here's to the next step.  This one is tough as well, because it's still not my green light to eat breads and stuff like that, but it's going to be a new learning experience all together.  Wish me luck in phase 2 folks.  See ya.  CHEERS !!! or in this case, Bon Apetit. 

What a difference.....

Well, here I am, a few days later, and going slowly down.  I am just relaxing this weekend, waiting for my angel to come home.  Then it's salad,  fruit smoothies, and a movie, followed by some awesome cuddling.  More to report next week.  Have fun all.  Oh, and to those who don't think I can do this, either join me in this fight for my life, or shut the hell up.  

So, back again.....

  Well, after over a week, I am down about a total of 13 pounds.  I've leveled off slightly, but still, moving downward as I go.  It's a bit by bit process, so today, I am gonna be juicing for the rest of the week, and going for broke once again.  This is hard, giving up what you love, food-wise.  It sucks to see people eating what you love to eat and not being able to partake and enjoy.  But I figure, it was here before, it will be here when I get done.  So, once more into the breach dear friends....or into the juice, as it were.  See ya back here in a few days folks.  See ya.  CHEERS!!!!

Another day, and nothing more to say.....

So today, I have gone from all juice to solids, but really, we'll call it a salad.  My weight is the same, 453, and not moved in the past day, so Mom, there ya go.  If you want more news, I will do a full update tomorrow, and thats all she wrote.  See ya. CHEERS !!!!

One small step, one small really really hard tough excrutiating day.....

  So, here again folks, another day down, and another down.  And let me tell you, if you ever hear me say this was an easy thing, grab the nearest brick and crack me in the head with it.  This is one of the toughest things I have done, in my life, ever. I have thought of nothing but food for the past few days, and it is absolutely maddening.  I feel like my taste buds and brain have worked out some strange kind of agreement to wage a saliva battle against me every time I get near food I can't have.  Definitely frustrating.  For example, I sometimes have to go down near downtown and I was picking a car up near 57th & Woodland.  Right there on the corner was a fried chicken place.  I could have used a mop to wipe up my mouth, and later, one of the guys in the receiving lot offered me an extra order of Mu-shoo Beef he had gotten from his dinner order.  Sometimes, I just can't win.
  But, I prevailed, and made it back home, although I had to stop, and honestly, just kind of cry and collect myself. for a bit.  This diet is harder than I thought.  I have, however, many reasons to do this, so I will trudge ever on and make the sacrifices I have to know, so I can have my life later.  To my friends and family supporting me, I thank you whole heartedly.  It means more than you know, and I appreciate it immensely.  And once again, for those who are guessing, todays scale reading - 453.2.  One more step, folks.  Small, it may be, but a step forward, nonetheless.    See ya.  CHEERS !!!!!!

So, after a few days.......

As I am sure some of may multitudes of fans (11 by the members list.......uh, huh.) have now discovered, your friend, pal, chum, buddy, hottie ( thanks Jen T. - still love that post you sent) is on a road, bumpy, to say the least, to getting himself healthy again. 
 Well, I have a cold now, so it's gonna be that much harder to keep my head straight and just drink juice, but I will getthrough it, so now worries.  Yesterday, working in the rain and cold didnt help me health wise, but, over all, i'm not too bad today, the sun is out and, yes it's cold, but i won't be soaked to the skin like a rat drowned a sewer. 
  I also want to say that I am changing the parameters of my juice-fast, as it were, from 60, to 14, for now.  And the reasons are this.  It's hard to just go from meals you physically put in your mouth, chew, swallow, and actually eat, to just drinking juice.  Don't get me wrong, I have done it, but it's extremely difficult, especially when you drive a truck all day, and have to keep your meal cold, and you pass by all these food establishments.  (My personal weakness last night was the Krispy Kreme on Oxford ave)  I survived and made it home, although I didn't have anything but my juice, I drank only one 20 ounce bottle, and just partially of another.   I had some pea soup last night to ward of the chills of night, and then it was off to bed.
  So please, fellow weight watchers, not the company, just those watching me, I am going to keep onward my journey, dragging my self by my torn and bloody fingers if need be, but I will press on.
  And in case any one asks me why, after reading all this, why oh why would I keep doing this to myself:  The scale said 457 today.  That's four pounds in three days,  THAT'S why.  See ya soon.  CHEERS !!!!